I've loved at least five times
And four of them were mine
I, for a while, was fine
Go figure

And though the years went by
I haven't changed that much
I'm good at talk and touch
Just bigger

I guess it's not too late
Or so I'm always told
I'm just matured, not old
But bitter

And what I want is all
Commitment, fun and joy
A partner, not a toy
Not glitter

I've loved at least five times
The first one was no match
And I was no good catch
But trying

I hated that she drank
And still we made three years
Both caused a lot of tears
Denying

The second one was young
But we were both okay
Until she went away
One morning

To find herself and live
And try out different things
And see what else life brings
No warning

The third one had it all
She was, at least to me
As perfect as can be
She woke me

Her family was cruel
They made her pick a side
Four years, a painful ride
It broke me

Then came the weirdest times
With so much sex and pain
Exciting but insane
And longing

I almost died one night
The fourth one on my mind
Love made us cruel and blind
And wronging

She wasn't mine at first
But we could not resist
Such fire when we kissed
So heated

I realized too late
That nothing made her smile
I went after a while
Defeated

The fifth was never mine
Which might be for the best
She made each day a test
Debating

And while I miss her still
I can accept she's gone
I'm used to moving on
And waiting

Each time you called me stupid
Looking smug as you do
I found out not much later
What I'd said was true

Each time you lied I caught you
And you called it a joke
I felt like I was tested
Each time that you spoke

Each time we fucked was special
And on this we agree
The one thing that was perfect
Between you and me

He's teaching aerobics all day on the beach
The muscles that I have, his arms double each
The girls flirt like crazy, the women do too
Of course in between them he notices you

He's dancing with you at the disco tonight
The music gets slower, he's holding you tight
There's testosterone in his sweat and his eyes
You're ready to suck up each one of his lies

I watch from the corner because I don't dance
I know if I did, I would still have no chance
I'm neither clean-shaven, hispanic or hot
Don't work at a club or display what I've got

The night's almost over, no sleep is in reach
You've left hand in hand to have sex on the beach
I know he takes home someone else every night
I guess you know too, but you deem it alright

When you're back at home he won't write you or call
You might send him pictures or nothing at all
Hell, I just don't know what goes on in your head
But fuck, do I wish you were with me instead

It's easy to be wise when shit goes south
But harder to stay nice and watch your mouth
And always being right is not much fun
The things you fight for might just be undone

Listen closely, little one
Life's not always light and bliss
Maybe one day, when I'm gone
You will still remember this:

You'll have worries and concerns
And it's good to plan ahead
But when life takes different turns
Don't be crushed, let go instead

Very often you won't know
What you really need right now
Life has funny ways to show
You a different truth somehow

Never try to beat the rest
But don't settle for okay
Always try to be your best
Try again each brand-new day

Be more honest than polite
And be gentle more than strong
Proud but humble when you're right
And accepting when you're wrong

Never change who others are
Don't let them define your views
You will not be getting far
If you aren't who you choose

And whatever road life takes
Try to bring your friends along
May your "Always" be like Snape's
And your "Never" just as strong