Waiting for my feelings to catch up with my brain It’s a bit annoying but I cannot complain I have learned to listen to the

You’re beautifully damaged Like everyone I know And if I could undo you I wouldn’t make it so You’re not what once tore through you

I haven’t had A perfect kiss In many years And yes, I’m sad And yes, I miss And there were tears  I haven’t felt Remotely whole For decades now I want to melt To fill

Another good one died Funny, gentle, smart Those left here fall apart Peace of mind denied  We knew that she was stained Chemo didn’t take Look at the mess we make Look

You like those chains and cages Mishandled through the ages The spanking and the spit You’re really into it The bitemarks, slaps and bruises And all the tools one uses When

It’s so fucking stupid because you’re still here And I can still spend my time with you, my dear Still daily I sob, then I stop, take

Stripped naked while fully clothed A stranger to your betrothed You bare everything you bear I’m there  Made worthless by all your wealth You search for a sense of self All

Soft little fluff ball You’re breathing so fast Everyday’s trust fall I want this to last Feeling you near me I pray you won’t go You see, smell and hear me I

Much time has passed And so have you Your kids (I do believe there’s two) Now go to school  If I at last Turn out less blue I’ll know No matter what I

I feel like everything’s slipping away again I held it tight for as long as I could And I don’t know how to get through the day