I see the way he looks at you You say that you’re just friends I’m sure that what you say is true But that’s not

I’m not what you want And how could you want me? This question will haunt me Until I dissolve Just look where I’m at Why

You hug your siblings and your pets I’m not the one embraced And while I’m riddled with regrets I try to act unphased Determined to

I envy you for being lost Unknowing who you are I’ve known myself at much a cost It didn’t get me far And if you

I took Your lack of jealousy As trust Until it dawned on me That you just never cared And maybe I was scared To look

Judge me by my actions Judge me by my words Not by my affections Not by how it hurts Blame me for my choices Not

Yesterday I fell asleep In another’s cotton sheets While tonight I’m wide awake Wrapped in your arms And you’d maybe call me cheap For my

She says she’s got no time for friendships I’ve said the same thing in the past It was a lie each time I did As

I’ve burned a lot of bridges Some didn’t need to go I went to rags from riches And watched the fire grow Melancholy embraced me

Not sure I’ve missed this dark emotion I’ve been too busy to be me I haven’t touched the deep black ocean Now it reminds me